[This is Frida Kahlo]

Hello Dear One: 

You are over 50 and you know how you got to this place: you pushed, you fought, you caffeinated yourself through the tough days and then you worried through the sleepless nights.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
🔥But you knew what you were doing was important — or at least necessary. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
🔥Now you’ve passed the 50 year mark and you’re asking yourself, “What’s next?’⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
🔥You know you are meant for something new, something different. The road ahead is different from the road behind. Or, at least, you want to feel differently than you did before.

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
🔥And, your usual strategies are not working. Your neck and shoulders are stiff. Your sleep is not adequate. You drink too much coffee and you need every sip of it. Your whole body hurts when you get out of bed in the morning. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
🔥But, your dream lives. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
🔥The vision might not be clear, but it beckons, and you are determined.⠀

 

This was me when I turned 50 and I knew something needed to change. I had no idea what my dream was and I was even less aware of how to proceed.

 I stumbled into a very special version of yoga with very special teachers and that hour after work and before I went home to my two children was magical.

 When Talya Ring asked us, “Do you ever feel that you are not enough?” I had never considered this question, but my body answered for me. Tears streamed down my face.

 This was the start of my healing journey, at age 50, and I have been pursuing this path for 18 years now.

 I have learned so much.

 I have always been a teacher. At the University of Illinois at Chicago (some called it “The Circle” for its location at the intersection of many highways), I loved my open-hearted freshman writing students, whose families came to Chicago from all over the globe.  And, I admired my brave, unstoppable graduate students who pursued their writing and teaching careers with optimism, often against huge odds.

 But now, surprisingly more than before, I am learning and teaching, from my heart. It’s not the thing that I am teaching. It’s the feeling.

 What will my life be like now that I am past the “half-way” mark? What do I want? What do I really desire? How can I grab onto that while others are still suggesting what I “should” do.

 These are the questions that I grapple with and this is why I write this blog.

 Thank you for coming to visit me here. I hope to hear from you.

 Tell me please, what you are feeling and thinking. What do you want? Please admit to yourself that you deserve whatever it is. I’m sending love and permission just to think these thoughts. If your friends are navigating these same waters, please invite these ladies to join.

 Love and Gratitude,

AnnMerle

 P.S. My granddaughter, Sammy Kiku, calls us “Hot Lava Ladies.” Let’s flow like Lava toward whatever it is we desire! Thanks, Sammy Kiku!

 

 

Join My Tribe!

Sign up to receive valuable emails, blogs, and videos that support your best self.

I hope you love my newsletter, but you can unsubscribe at any time.

Accessibility

Pin It on Pinterest